I want to go back to being a robot. I just do what I usually do: go to school, go to work, do homeowork, production, rocky, then come home and sleep. Day after day. I just did it, no questions, no complaining. I just gotta suck it up, not show anything. That way no one asks questions. If I act as if nothing is wrong, there is no issue with anything, then poeple will stop asking what is wrong. They don’t have to know anything, they don’t care anyway. No one cares anyway. No one ever really cares. Well that isn’t true, but for a lot of people most of the time….no one really cares. They are all just words: “Ohh, I’m sorry, that sucks.” “It could be worse.” and ones I really hate “Oh that happened to me too.” “I had one of those days too…” and “If it makes you feel any better, I (blah blah blah) (something that is just as bad or worse)” No it does not make me feel better. If I am talking to you about something like this you are probably a good friend. So why in the hell would your misfortune make ME feel better?! I don’t want you to feel bad. Faking my mood is a good way out. I think only one person has been able to decode that, (and it has been a while since then). We will have to see.
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